Forget Past and Love the Present .

Have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry ? Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night ? Have you ever try to find the word but they don't come out right ? Have you ever ? Have you ever been in love so bad ? You'd do anything to make him understand . Have you ever found someone stay far away ? You'd do anything to make him feel the same . Have you ever search for word to get him in your arm , but you don't know what to say and you don't know where to start ?

I was in love with a guy . I never knew i would like him when we met for the first time . People said , you will know if you would fall for the person after 30 seconds of meeting . It's like a love at the first sight . Well , he wasn't my first and i thought he would be my last , indeed i was wrong . Love came without you inviting it in your life . We fell for each other . Love is so great . I felt like the world was mine . Everything seems to be so beautiful . Life was so wonderful . There's nothing else i could ask for more . I had a perfect life with those laughter , happiness and love . What else do i need ? NOTHING ! All that matters to me at that moment was him . Unfortunately , you can't change the fate in your life . The love we had for each other didn't lasts . I guess we weren't meant to be , and so he left . The pain was unbearable . My heart was broken into pieces . I've started questioning myself , why things turn out to be in this way ? What i've done to deserve this ? Friends said , just sleep , wake up the next day and get over it . It's easy to say but it ain't easy to do it . Though things between us already over , but my heart never changed . I am thankful for having him once in my life . He showed me love , he gave me love and he took it away from me . If only i could unwind time , i wish i could make him mine again .

Stuck in the middle with you .

I'm just sitting here , tryna , forget about those years and i , i can't take the thought of her alone with you . It's been a year or so and you moved on and left me cold and i wish that i could let you know i still got a thang for you . But you got another woman , she says she loves you too . Baby boy i understand this must be hard on you and it gets so hard sometimes to know just what to do , stuck in the middle of you . You and i , seen it all sunny days through the storms still i know she could never love you like me , boy i know she and you going new she messed it up with it all , No she can never love you like me . Can we go back again as lovers not as friends cause i know she can never love you like me . Boy i've been there before , time to close that open door , i know she can never love you like me . I was the one you came running to when the tears would fall from what she do . Who knew that friends would become lovers , going crazy giving my all but getting half of you . I'm not half the woman so tell me what to do ( ? ) Never gonna let you go cause you know our love is true . But you got another woman but she's not good for you . Baby boy i understand but this ain't all on you and it gets so hard sometimes to know just what to do , stuck in the middle with you . I know that you will never find another love like me and you can look won't find another woman like me and even though you might have separated from me , gotta make a choice can't wait forever because she can never love you like i did .

Incomplete

Yesterday , we're ( Tiara , Jue & Myself ) supposed to go out for raya shopping & break fast . We've planned it for the past 2 weeks , i guees . As usual , i'm always the Excited one . The best part we've planned to wear baju kurung for shopping . Can you believe it ? HAHA . When we told our mothers about it , they were like ' are you serious ' ? and laughed . That's what they do best :)

The day has come but unfortunately , Tiara couldn't make it . Her cousin got into an accident . She had to rushed back to Kedah with her family . It's okay lady . Jue & I pray your cousin will recover soon & everything will be fine . Insyallah .

So Jue & I went out together without wearing our baju kurung as we had plan earlier . Went to QB , Jue shop for her raya clothes . She spent a lot . Bought shoes as well and i like her shoe :( Malangnya aku kepokaian . Takde duit nak beli kasut . GAHHHHH . Went in Vincci and i am so in love with their new arrival heels . How i wish Mama was around at that time , i can ask her for that heels . Red is so sexy and blacky is elegant . GAHHH . Had our break fast at Chicken Rice . Food was OK lah . Too many dishes on the table . Tak tau macam mana nak habis kan . We tapau back the food . Failed to finish it . We did not snap any pictures together because of my acnes . CAN'T WAIT TO SEE SKIN SPECIALIST TOMORROW . BAHHHHHH .

Conclusion i had a super great time with Kakak Jue . Oppppsssie . We shall go out again , this time Tiara must make it :)

I love Sundays !

I am HAPPY

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I love SUNDAYS :)

Mom cooks variety of dishes every Sundays . It's so tempting . Yummy .

It's August . Oh , Dang !

Oh well , it's august . Do you know what it means ? It means , i left 3 months before my biggie exam start . Holly shitttt ! And i'm still in my honeymoon mood . You are so DEAD , Hanni ! OUCH ! Don't worry , i am busy studying for biggie exam and i can't wait for it to be OVER ! Wish me luck :)

Till then , take care . Will update more soon :)


PS; I'm dying because of missing you too much .

Demasquer La Nuit

I had a splendid time last night . Prom Night was AWESOME . It was full of fun & the best part we had dance floor with great musics . We were dancing & shaking & moving throughout the whole night . Credit to Melvin Tan , you did a good jod as our DJ & i love the punjabi song you played last night . That's what you called real fun . Everyone looked great with their outfits and not forgetting their CrazySexyCool masks . Benedict , your masks is super cool man . Thanks to Lady Gaga :) Yes yes of course i took pictures last night , i've already uploaded in facebook . Check it out ! But i do have some photos to show ;

Myself vani - ing with my own mask

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My Gorgeous Ladies of the night

Serene Ch'ng , you look gorgeous

Adorable Lady , Fong Siew Yen

Beautiful Charisma

Sexy Louisa darling

I had a great great great time people . So much fun with my friends and yes teachers as well . Hope to be a cool one after our biggie exams . Can't wait for December .

Happy Birthday Beautiful .

Last friday was Mama's birthday . 16th July . We're supposed to had dinner at Chilis but then there is no one at home to take care of atok if everyone go out . Last option we had was tapau pizzas from Pizza Hut and bake a cake for Mama :)

After classes i went back home around 12.30pm . Get a rest , bath and lunch . At 3pm sharp , i started to baked cake . It's Lemon - Orange Cake . Found the recipe in Star newspaper . It looks yummy , so i decided to try it . With the help of my aunt , enda pah . Thank god you were around or else tak tahu lah apa jadi dengan my cake . HAHA .

Baking cake was quite fast compare to biscuits , i think . Before Mama came back from the office , i cleaned up all the baking stuffs and put it back to it's original place so that Mama will not know that i've baked something . By that time she probably already knew it's for her . I sneaked out from house to enda pah's house at 6pm . We need to decorate the cake with icing . I only help a little bit because Mama found out i went out without telling her . So yeah , she nag . Right after Maghrib prayers , went out with Kak Sham to tesco . Bought pizzas for dinner and on our way back , we picked up enda pah and birthday cake .

We surprise d Mama and she was shocked . She was touched . Aaaawwww . * hugs and kisses *
That's all about it . We had blast night and celebration although it's at home . I'm glad Mama happy with the simple celebration . May Allah bless you always with love , happiness and prosperity . Amin . I love you .

Ps; Mama doesn't want any pictures to be uploaded because she was in her pyjamas when we surprised her .